Tuesday, May 24, 2011
So all throughout elementary school and one year of middle school, I had a group of friends made up of 6 girls, including me. And guess what? Four of them are pregnant. Well actually, scratch that. Three of them was pregnant sometime last year and already gave birth. But just this morning I discovered that another one of them is just a few months pregnant. I haven't really seen or talked to any of them since we went our separate ways after 6th grade, but I really did care for them then, and I honestly believed they would be successful in life. All of us were always in gifted classes in elementary school and honor classes in middle school and all the teachers bragged about how smart we were. Now the thought of them with babies at the age of 16 or 17 is mind-bottling, stupefying, unbelievable, and just plain WEIRD. All I can think is "how stupid can they be?!" While I'm here busting my butt in school in order to go to college, there they are getting impregnated by some immature teenage boy. Perhaps what bothers me the most is the fact that their friends think it's the best thing that could ever happen, as if the belly bump is the hottest accessory or something. I was on facebook and my friend posted she was 3 months pregnant and so many people pressed the 'like' button. Wow. Really? An impregnated teenage girl is something to like? Maybe I'm being too harsh. Maybe it's not entirely their fault. After all, the media seems to love glamorizing sex and pregnancy. For example, ABC Family, a channel meant for 'FAMILIES' to watch, have a show called "The Secret Life of the American Teenager." This show literally is solely based on sex, sex, and more sex. And basically everyone in the show is pregnant and they're all in HIGH SCHOOL. MTV also loves to glamorize sex. Just take a look at their shows: 16 and Pregnant, Teen Mom, and Skins. What is this world coming to???
Sunday, May 22, 2011
It's official. I have an addiction. To what you may ask? Nope, not drugs or alcohol, or even shoes. I am addicted to the ever so tasty chocolate. But not just your average chocolate bar. No sir. I am addicted to Hershey's Symphony Chocolate, and it kicks every other chocolate bar's butt. It's so decadent and silky-smooth and it's impossible for me to put down! To be honest, I could probably just sit at home and eat this chocolate all day. Each bite is a little piece of heaven in my mouth. You all should really try it! :) Now please, do tell me your obsession. =P
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Sunday, May 15, 2011
Singing feeds my lonely soul. It comforts me in the silence of the night, and it expresses the words that my heart is dying to tell. Singing has been my passion ever since I was around 5 or 6 years old. I would sing every song I knew and loved. Ironically enough, I don't like singing in front of my family. I don't exactly know why, but whenever they catch me singing I feel completely and utterly embarrassed almost as if they just caught me naked with a guy. I also don't like singing in front of my friends. Actually, scratch that. I LOVE singing with my friends, but I don't sing seriously. It's more like screaming/singing at the top of my lungs and singing in a silly way. I don't know why I can't sing in front of my friends and family. Perhaps it is because I am at my most vulnerable when I am singing. It is when I pour my heart and soul, and it will only take one word of criticism to shatter me into pieces. So tell me, what is your passion?
Saturday, May 14, 2011
This is one moment I will always look back on and laugh. It was a beautiful Saturday morning - bright, sunny, and full of life. My friends Alexa, Christy, Bobby, John, and I were coming from a school event and were on our way to Alexa's house. Bobby's dad picked us up in his very small and old sports car that was only meant to fit 2 people on the backseat. So it was very comical how all four of us were cramped and practically on top of each other on the backseat while Alexa sat on the passenger's seat. Needless to say, we were very uncomfortable, but fortunately John plugged his ipod to the car's radio and played one of Taylor Swift's songs. We turned the volume to the maximum level and we sang our hearts out. We sang word for word at the top of our lungs with all our windows down and we flailed our arms every which way. Bobby's dad is also a very careless driver, and after seeing us all hyped up, he decided to add to our excitement by speeding like a maniac, causing many people to honk at us. So there we were, disrupting the peaceful streets of Los Angeles with our horrible singing and our silly laughter. It was especially funny when there was a red light and people around us kept staring at us because we were just the oddest group of people. For one thing, we were all cramped in a small beat-up car with music on full blast, and to top it all off, we were singing to Taylor Swift's silly love songs. Lol.
I absolutely love having fun memories like these with my friends. How about you guys? What are some of your fun memories?
Wow! So 2 weeks ago, this blog was deleted. Blogspot emailed me and said my blog was deleted and didn't allow me to sign in for 2 whole weeks. I was so pissed! But today I decided to try it out again, and what do you know, blogspot put it back in session. I am so happy!!! <3
Posted by jesayka at 8:58 AM
Sunday, May 1, 2011
In my life, I have had the most amazing people that I was lucky enough to call my best friends, while some don't even have one. Unfortunately, life happens and my friends came and went, time and time again. It's not easy to find that special someone, whom you can really connect with in a deep level. A person whom you can share all your secrets with and laugh all night with. A person whom you can somehow communicate with, without saying a single word. A person whom you know, without a doubt, is fated to be your friend. But I was lucky enough to have found five in my whole lifetime (which is relatively short of course, seeing as though I'm only 17). But every time I found one, sooner or later they were gone. Either they moved away, went to a different school, or we just had nothing left in common.
It's so heartbreaking to lose a friend. And it's so mind bottling how at one point we're soul mates, and then all of sudden we see each other in the halls and can't even mutter a simple "hello." For instance, I had a best friend all throughout elementary school and the summer just before 6th grade. But when 6th grade came along, we just stopped talking. Neither of us knows how, but it just happened and whenever we see each other, we can't even look at each other in the eyes and just ignore each other.
And next year I'm going to be a senior, and before long, I'm going to be graduating. And I worry because right now, I have an amazing friend, but I know we are going to go our separate ways eventually. And I don't want her to be just another person I lost in touch with and can no longer hold a simple conversation with. Does anyone else understand what I'm going through?